imWHOyouWANTmeTObe

Hi.
Am I supposed to write something really clever and cheerful here? Or may I be true to myself and everybody else?
I'm in pain right now, you know, the sort of pain where you are afraid of breathing because if it hurts even more than this you are going to scream. I hate being in pain. It controls me. And you got to hate the feeling of being controled. I have allways hated to be controled. But it's worse when it's your own body. I can't hate my own body! Or, ofc I can if I really really feel like it, but that's just a waste of time. 2009 it was popular to hate yourself, but not now. Not even if it feels like you are going to die of pain caused by you own FUCKING body.
So I read. Watch pictures. Even if i can't focus that good, I watch and read read and watch. And I hate it when there's no more pictures to watch and when there's no more texts to read. Cuz now I end up writing myself, and you see how that worked out...

I just wanted to tell you guys, all of you that do such great work and put them up here, that I adore you! Thank you for making my pain less important for a while.

♥

I was tagged by and I have to list 10 facts about myself and tag 10 people.

1. I am an vegetarian but i think meat is beautiful so I think I will get an tatoo with meat as motive

2. I got a boyfriend who I am very in love with, don't think I would survive without him

3. I have a cat named Simba, but he's to gay to function (Y)

4. I hate thriller movies, or horror movies. FUCK THEM

5. I love to watch sex and the city ALONE

6. I don't belive in ~one best friend~ cuz that means you'll be all alone if something goes wrong with that person

7. I used to be the brightest person in class.

8. I hate to play games. any games. I hate them.

9. I love to be surrounded by people.

10. I miss people to easily


I'm tagging:


I taged all my watchers xD

okay...I think I had something really interesting to tell you..but I THINK I forgot so you'll have to read this very confusing journal instead! ;D
today i have done NOTHING! haha yeah that was a lie CUZ I'VE BEEN RUNING AROUND LIKE A BAFOON!was awakened by my dad's phone call at 9 that i have to hurry to my sisters school cuz he was able to fix some ticets to her school ending...(??)... eh yeah..continuing..so i ran up, showered, dressed, put on some make-up, bought flowers, and ran to the school in 1 hour EPIC~ME<3
and i've been feeling all sad all day! it sucks, cuz i love to wake up all pretty and gay, but it doesn't seem to happen very much nowdays..
I guess i really need summer! and who doesn't, you can sleep all you want, you can do whatever you want and the sun is shining, the air is warm and the people are beautiful!

...
and now i got tired of my own writing; so couldn't you all like...tell me what you've been upto today??

xoxo

Yeah so I don't really know why I write this. I guess I wan't someone to read it and feel sorry 4 me. Like allways. I'm getting tired of feeling totally worthless cuz I can't be what people wan't me to.
(Like being good at spelling HAHA.)
I hate it when I know I can do so mutch better but still do eveything so crappy and half-hearted. I wan't to be everything, but I allways end up being a dissapointment.

I'm not only a crappy person in general but I'm ALSO a crappy friend. I will probably break all my friends once or twice. Before I crush them totally. I don't know the value of true friends, and I tend to use the good things in people to get everything the way I wan't it to be.

Yeah so life's a bitch and I'm a pussy.
What to do.

mmhmm this time by ohmyes so here's another crappy..thingie!

Questions!

1. Who are you?
IM THE KING OF F****N' EVERYTHING...tought I told ya yesterday : (

2. Are we friends?
*stupid question*

3. When and how did we meet?
~First day of school, august the 18th 2008
but that would just be steeling saras answer MOHAHA so i'll guess I have to say like a bizillion years ago when it was written in our destiny

4. How have I affected you?
how have you not??

5. What do you think of me?
I LAVVSSS YOU!!
cough
I mean....you're a nice person...

6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
do I have to pick only ONE??

7. How long do you think we will be friends?
faevvah

8. Do you love me?
äh who needs love when you got sara-hugs??
oh wait!!
that's the same thingie!

9. Do you have a crush on me?
BIG ONE! dream about makin' sweet love to you every night BABAY

10. Would you kiss me?
yuk Then i would get boy-germs!! D:

11. Would you hug me?
that means that you would have to stop huggin' me for a second so i can start huggin' you, you mean?!?

12. Physically, what stands out?
still... ~stands out~ (I know that it sounds like I'm avoiding the question but that is because I think it's a stupid one and I think the whole 'YOU' are fantastic so it's hard to pic ONE part)

13. Emotionally, what stands out?
~sTANDS OOOOOUUUUTTT~

14. Do you wish I was cooler?
ehh...
and how would you do that??
it's impossible *stupid quiz*

15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
AMAGAD = 20000000000000000000000000000000000000000

16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
you'll allways be sara *__*

17. Am I lovable?
*STUPID QUESTION GOSH* loves youyouyouyou

18. How long have you known me?
feavvah

19. Describe me in one word.
mine (a)

20. What was your first impression?
I DONT REMEMBER D':

21. Do you still think that way about me now?
NO cuz now I remember you lots every day in all I do

22. What do you think my weakness is?
you penis

23. Do you think I'll get married?
OFC! how else can we have babies that's unchurchi..something...

24. What makes me happy?
PAINTING, SOME BOY ;D, ME, MYSELF, AND I, CEECEE, MATHEEESS, ME!
sorry i feel kinda egocenterd right now let me know if you would want to change this text
: ((

25. What makes me sad?
stupidmttahfakkacuntfaces I think

26. What reminds you of me?
the name sara



HAHAH lol no every time I see a painting,  or everytime I want to hug someone, orORORORORORRR many things sara i don't wanna make a list plz :>>>

27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
ANYTHIONG! OFC

28. How well do you know me?
weeellleenn burgare

29. When's the last time you saw me?
TODAISY

30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
ya birthday present darling ;D

31. Do you think I could kill someone?
the person had to do something reeeeeeaaally bad then

32. Are you going to put this on your deviant journal and see what I say about you?
öh wazza??


I tag~ *lookzie at my last tagg photo plz??*